im preparing everything and reading insperational blogs, yet i still have to eat the crap…..i crave it and seek it out…..its like my body is forging for all i have before Sept 1 arrives….I try to keep busy and ignore the craving but temptation always wins….They say an alcoholic has to admit he/she is ready before they make their first step well im beyond ready, why cant i just say no…..i dont want to eat it but i do, i now im not hungry but i eat anyways, if it dont have it in the house, i will go buy it….I HAVE NO CONTROL!!!! Im tired of failing and feeling like a failure I want out of this body I want to be proud to sleep beside my husband at night and show off to him instead I comfort myself with the food..Iam my worst enemy. The expression you must hit Rock Bottom before things go upwards well Haven’t I hit rock bottom yet? Why do I sabbotage myself? Why cant I control my eating habbits……Life keeps throwing me curves and Im fallinf right into where I dont want to be……..Happy Saturday I hope all of you out there have the success you all deserve Best Wishes and Good Luck!!